Times are crappy at the moment! My best friend just lost her father to cancer last week and a friend of the family has her son in a coma at the moment. He is a 32 year old Dr, who was beaten up on the way home in central london and has been all over the local news and newspapers. Its very sad. I had met him once before and after a week still in a total coma. They stole money and phone but was all the violence worth that?
Anyway my best friends father's funeral is this week sometime. I wanna go but not sure. My health is crappy. We will see what happens! Also there is major building work going on to the house which is really stressful. I am cracking up physically and emotionally :( I don't feel well and anxiety is really bad plus feeling miserable and sad! I don't feel like doing anything or challenging myself at all anymore
Apart from my brilliant 30th birthday party this year, 2009 Is turning into the worst year ever! Which is ironic because getting my fortune told in May 2008 said it would be a brilliant year and transformational for the better and back to normal life!
To be honest at the moment I don't think anything could get any worse! I am still thinking about getting cognitive behavioural therapy. You gotta make changes to get changes but to be honest I want things to settle down a bit first!
I just want to be miserable on my own in a quiet place, I really deserve better from karma by now :(
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update:- feeling a bit better then when I wrote this earlier! hoping good things now enter my life :)
Maybe
3 months ago