hoping for a glittering future

Hello, just a late night blog email update. I am feeling much better than the last entry! Will write a longer update about everything going on!

I am annoyed tonight with myself for always relying on others to make me happy. Like waiting for a message or a call! Its not their fault but when they don't have time for me that happiness is gone and over! I have to make myself happy. I can't rely on anyone else. Just feeling a bit abandoned and stupid tonight. I need to be able to do things as an individual and not rely on anyone else. I am currently onto a big losing game! Happiness when I hear from someone. This always happens to me. Everything is one sided on my side! Not on theirs!

Me first and then others, ugh its almost impossible for me to do that :( just always get let down by my own expectations of someone!

Much love
D xx
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